I found that by doing this experiment I am still harboring some very hard, deep seeded
emotions. Writing this paper on Brittany has made me cry several times. It has brought up memories I
had buried and I realized I have guilt for her death even though I know there was nothing I could have
done. I’m not sure how I will deal with and get through the guilt, but I will figure it out so that I can live
my life to the fullest. I also will continue to write, even though that feels like a battle inside me. I like
writing, it is healing for me. My workouts have improved and I have gotten back into the habit of
sadhana, which helps me so much. This was very healing for me.